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Be +ve!

Posted by Qi... on 19:48
The worst thing about being criticized is
Bits by bits
You become your best critique
You can say this is good reflective skills
But this is simply depressing

Wanna write some encouraging status
Try to shout out to myself "stay steady"
But I was told I'm too steady with my own pace
Ideas arose and refuted end up I could write nothing
Maybe I just need a simple good luck and get to work.

#stopthinkingyouarenotgoodenough!
No you are not gonna screw it up
Hopefully....fingers crossed




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Something called weekend

Posted by Qi... on 23:19

So this is how I spent my last weekend.

Day ONE,
Secret lover with debaters.
This bunch of crazy people having so much fun during Secret Santa and decide had one for Valentine's day too
And what a coincidence the day we chose is 1.3.14 一生一世 so sweet
So the rule is buy a V day's gift for someone(wishlist provided as guideline)
and....write a LOVE LETTER to that someone and let him/her guess who you are
I had to admit we are too creative
I nonchalantly talked about this idea and that crazy lady was so excited and decided to let it happen
So here we are. The surprise is all of our beloved juniors came despite the EXAM STRESS ACTIVITY(wish they were this committed for trainings)
So we had an expensive meal(but yummy one!) and bought presents for each other.
Not exactly the way I like to spend my weekends but I love it much because of the company <3
Always love seeing this seemingly weird combination of people happily mixed around
They make me feel young and old at the same time LOL

And an achievement to be proud of, I'm the only successful secret lover!
Managed to camouflage my identity so well in the LOVE letter(my first one and to someone I definitely not like XD) that I get away from it
It's so like killer! Haha, create suspicion for others and that's how you could survive safely!
Btw, did I mention I "wrap" the present in McD cup? I'm genius haha!

Another group photo!
See all the bears? All because 50% off on Hello Planet
These cheap people

So yeah, I got myself another bear
Not sure why I went out of my head and request for this,
I was in more dire need of shampoo actually LOLOL



The next day, woke up 10 minutes before I was required to wait downstairs
and I'm the one who supposed to gather everyone.
Genius me. Anyway we arrived UTAR at time for Beach Cleaning
Went to Pantai Morib....everytime I go around places like this or Sungai Buloh
Only then I realized Selangor is veryyyyy big.

Anyway, enjoyed the morning very much
Cause we had fun games on the beach and a very energetic aerobic
Sorta feel like the activities was more than the cleaning activity itself
Anyway, it is a nice experience I guess, cleaning up the mess left by people
Reminded me of the time we cleaned up Genting Klang(feeble attempt lol)
How easy it is to throw something but for someone to pick it up, it is a different story
However the beach was much cleaner than it needs to be >.< so nothing much to do
and there was a thick thick haze around till I cant really see the skyline
I think my lung is already stained grey on the surface

Chat a little with my group members from UTAR.
Was surprised to heard one of them involved in beach cleaning in Port Dickson
Where they need to clear all the black oil. That is what I call beach cleaning
Anyway, I was bad at sharing and even worse at facilitate sharing
Guess I'm just not the type to talk all out about love earth love world etc
So end up we are the first group the end the doughnut session

And finally had made some of my juniors to come for TzuQing activity
Actually missed one of them very much haha
Wished I had more time with her and sure we will be best friend
We just had so many similarities in so many way.
But of course she has a kinder soul than me. warmer smile. more hardworking. HAHA
Love the feeling when they tell me how much they missed our time together(I miss that too! :D)
and how they've changed after the transformation :P
I feel like a proud mama and seeing them perform well at other places make me feel the pride too!

Another surprise when this ah moi told me she was interested! <3
Good to have you around!


Guess I will miss this sort of weekends.
Packed with activities till I feel like there is NO weekend
Actually enjoyed it, maybe cause my work tsunami haven't really strike yet
Maybe I will miss the lazy weekend, rolling at bed doing nothing
Yeah I'm too greedy I wanted both *Double weekend maybe?*

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Voice

Posted by Qi... on 21:57

If multiple people repeatedly tell you the same thing,
When all the sound ooze into your brain and it starts to reverberate from inside
It is hard for you not to believe in it
Should I filter these or should I buy this and do something on myself instead?
Lots of question marks here.

Maybe it's just my inertia as usual,
refusing to CHANGE.
It's a whole new semester,
like every semester, it starts with little hope and little resolution
So let's see how long can it last this time

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Power of words

Posted by Qi... on 02:50

Finally finish my first book of the semester.
Strictly speaking it is my second book of the year
and it's Mac now!
So sorry to my booksssssssssssss in the shelf *big bow and hugsss*

Miss those days when I can finish five books per week
and always try to exceed library's quota of borrowing
Yea that was primary school but
I just love those moments when I can just immersed myself in any story while lying on any surface, be it sofa, pillow, bed or the floor and let time drifted by
That is how an only child spend her afternoon in a house without air-con or Internet

Back to the topic,
this is another Amy Tan. My second one.


Erm was attracted to her cause she gave a really awesome(now I reconsider that) Ted Talk
So I was like okay, so she is international best-seller and she talk well!
Probably she wrote well too.
And as a matter of fact, she did.

It's just that is weird watching a half-Asian portray Asian, in English btw
It's like having everything you are familiar in a different form.
Like burger with rice bun. Might be nice or even taste better but just not right.
You always wonder how people translate ghost story or the philosophy into English
She did quite a good job and you can see how detailed she went into her research
but it just sounded WEIRD and probably that's why I couldn't relate well with the story or character even with all the vivid narration
With all the elements you need in a touching book-relationship of all sorts, humanity in its worst or best, mystery, Asian mystery, adventure, misery, love, happy ending(?!)
Okay, now I'm thinking why am I being so demanding on her
But I just don't like the persistent presence of an old malicious nagging highly superstitious always cursing mother
Maybe that is her way of remembering her mother but that annoys me. A lot.

Anyway, the highlight here is actually the transcript of an interview with her at the back
She really makes me rethink a lot about the profession of writing
She talked about the research, the need of meticulous in depth research and to some extent, research with your footprint.
Walk through the place and feel everything, the soil, the air, the building
She talked about working from 9am-7pm DAILY
Remind me of the word of 建宁老师from FIR
Being an artist is not as free-style as the public imagine or anything on the screen, it requires DISCIPLINE, persistent enduring discipline that push you through the delivery process of the product
Guess there are just no easy way in any path
No genius, no sudden adrenaline of inspiration and no sudden sparks and tah dah moments

But somehow I prefer it this way
To put your feet through the way and sweat through it
The process of work for what you want is the one to be enjoyed and lived
Amy said she loved research and even done excessive research on tiny tinky bits
Think about it
You can just read on any random things fun things without any explanation just for it
You can be expert on art one year, animal another, depending on the theme of your writing
How exciting!
Just like actor or actress, in every drama, they lead a different life with different stories
For me, that's the most fascinating part of the profession, living several life in just one turn (y)

Winston Churchill once acclaimed writer are one of the best profession because "words are the only thing that last forever"
The power of words also does
Just like this one

I know everyone read this for English during SPM(btw I just love English literature class in high school)
But this is the first love poem I really appreciate
It makes me melt inside when our English teacher explain this to us

Every fair from fair sometimes decline,
but thy eternal summer shall not fade, no, not even under the threat of Death
because it is eternalized in this masterpiece of work
As long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
So long live this, and this give life to thee

Sorry I had to copy and retype it, there is no better way to reword it
I think that is the best gift a girl could ever had and the best manifestation of one's love
Eternal imprint of her beauty and their love <3
It literally bring me to that Awhhh and holding hand together moment
Hope it has that same miraculous effect on you too :D
Few lines of scrabbles, passed through centuries and touched souls of countless naive young girl like me
Think, how nonchalant it seemed yet how powerful it is
Now you know why words count XP




So my act of spending my before clinic weekend writing nonsense shouldn't be seen as that much of a sin I guess? =p *act innocent*

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做个信守承诺的人。尤其是对自己的承诺。

Posted by Qi... on 01:53

这一整个星期
一直有个目标
就是做早餐给自己
一直觉得一起来有温暖的早餐
是最幸福的事(想家了~~)
所以
能在自己一个人的时候
做不随便的早餐给自己
是爱自己的最佳表现
自己开创美好一天的心情

可是 这整个星期
在我按snooze超过四五次 真的该起床的时候
重点不是能不能煮早餐 而是有没有时间吃早餐
虽然我是赖床虫 还是想不知天高地厚的早期做早餐
lol就是爱自己这种不自量力莫名其妙的矛盾
所以 才跟她定下了约定
和我开锅都会约人的原因一样
约了人 我就会去做
唉~连自己也给自己差别待遇你还想谁对你好
不过今天的我 也许需要助力
期待下个星期的我 可以自动自发爱自己多一点


For me its all about egg XOXO

对自己
有太多的承诺
太多的纵容
答应了 做不到
开始了 半途而废
有少少成就 大大地嘉奖自己
在想 如果
对自己的承诺都能办到的话
我会把自己封为偶像吧
为了防止自己的过度自恋
我还是表现正常就好

但是其实
要求不高
每天十分钟 自己的时间
偶尔 对自己好稍微一点点
最后 把注意力稍微收拢一点点
不过分吧 微不足道得可怜
就这样 你 可以吗 拜托





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