Done with case presentation and mid-sem evaluation
Which means we already gone through half of the clinical practicum for this semester! Hooray :D
I still remember the frustration I had before the case presentation
Because throughout a 10 sessions therapy block
I can't find five minute of decent me,
I don't seek for flawless impressive stage-like performance
I just want a passable presentation
Yet I can't
Luckily they didn't see my video lol

Glad that everything went well and my third idol give me a GOOD =)
Trying hard to press down my tail cause this is just so unexpected
Teehee

Anxiety Item 2-Midsem evaluation checked as well
Even though it wasn't a positive feedback after all,
I am extremely calm after the midsem evaluation as well
Guess I finally set my mind right
They are meant to and paid to give us comment
It wasn't an easy job for them to
To pay full attention and just watch you no matter how boring it gets
Can't fall asleep no matter what time you sleep yesterday (Big challenge if you ask me :p)
So be grateful
They are willing to point out your mistakes
willing to direct you, lead you and sometimes drag you to the right path
Even when you refuse to help yourself, they push you

Remind myself to be grateful to people that are able to identify and willing to tell me my weakness
They are here to make you a better person =D
The words might stab you hard but still, what doesn't kill you make you stronger

最近的我 抱怨很多 怨气很重
这样福气会被你赶跑的！
甘愿做 欢喜受
如果你觉得是负担 一开始就别扛上身
要做 就要做的有价值
半参与 算什么
重复一次
甘愿做 欢喜受
YOLO
Make the best out of everything <3

其實有時候 我很怕回家
看到 腿瘦得只有我的一半
搖搖晃晃站不起來的你
告訴我 你六個星期沒回來了
真的 很怕
怕我下次回來 會是什麼光景

然後會內疚 擔心
會對你特別好 一兩天
然後看不到你 聽不到你的聲音 很多天
那畫面 就會慢慢溜走
我就會忙這個那個去這邊那邊玩
回家的日子一天天的拖

所以偶爾就需要回一趟
讓你看看我 也讓我看看你
才開始擔心
今天就聽到你跌倒的消息
不要讓我擔心內疚好不好
要快點好起來~
我就繼續乖乖的讓你碎碎唸~~
还想 继续碎碎念不乖的你~~

阿彌陀佛 _/\_

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我可以對陌生人侃侃而言 幫他們分析問題
但家人的問題 我永遠解決不了
只能點頭說我懂 我都懂
但又能怎樣呢？
家人 是很奇妙的緣分
七十年一起成長也會互相傷害
是血濃於水 也代表就算厭惡 也要見面
委屈 不委屈 還是一樣要稱呼叔伯姑嬸
說過 不要給別人傷害你的權力
說易行難
不期待別人會改
只期待自己能放下
繼續過我們快樂的日子不好嗎？

Seriously I need a PA
This is the second time I almost went to KJ for a meeting NOT SCHEDULED at today
Luckily this time I realized earlier
Phew, I don't have time to waste on travelling for TOMORROW'S meeting

Thinking back,
How great could it be if I have a PA
For me to have someone who can record down
all the meetings
deadline of assignments
appointments
to-do-list blah blah blah
My brain is too small to contain everything I need to remember
Don't tell me about notebook!
I'm still finding my last notebook which disappeared after two weeks I started using it


It would be a great learning experience for the lucky Mr./Ms. PA
This lucky person need
rocket level of discipline
persistence to never-never-never-never give up
ability to persuade the lazy stubborn me
highly organized and time efficient
With all these abilities,
you can find job at any other places
or job will come hunt for you.
I should definitely open a training center for newly grad
If you could fare well in being my PA, I'm sure you could endure any other things at work

Phew, it is so tiring to even take care of ourselve
See, so many dimension to take care of


I remembered how we used to laugh when our teachers told us the story
A university student who need his parents to stay together with him
But in the end I think I need someone to take care of me too
I failed at taking care of myself
My mum almost pengsan when she heard I am too lazy to eat fruits
because you need to wash the fruit cut the fruit throw the thing wash your hand/plate
It is a lot of procedure when you write it down right
It is the same with having milo in the morning the washing boiling washing walking
Lucky enough I have very high patient level so I can bear with anything
Or this is the root of the problem?





Love myself too much or did not love myself enough

This is gonna be a busy week.
When I say yes I guess I didn't expect all these
But I so feel like this is a good learning opportunity
To be in the committee of a camp with 800 people

I just don't wanna miss anything
Don't want to miss our last activity together
Don't want to miss any birthday celebration
Don't want to miss the meetings
Don't want to miss our time together

So yeah, this song is dedicated to everyone of you

And I want to put my best effort in everything
I thought I already gave in
This is definitely not my best effort but my bottom line is I cannot produce crap
So as usual, I grab everything in my bag
But I get cranky, very very cranky when I have a long to do list and little sleeping time

This is not me.
The low energy zombie that slides around
Totally not me.

Tomorrow is another day with clinic. Huhhh
and we have case presentation on Friday which I haven't even prepare the video
I have very bad and depressing feeling for this week
SO I dedicate this photo to myself to reverse all the negative feelings haha

IT WILL BE A GOOD DAY!





p/s: holiday is coming soon. Holiday without going home is still holiday. At least I can break free from the cycle of clinic for a week. Better than nothing.