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Insomniac rant

Posted by Qi... on 02:27

Human are weird creatures
Craving for sleep everyday
Yet having insomnia when I can and NEED sleep
Guess I exceeded my sleeping quota this week so no need sleep liao lo
Even more conscious than in the day fml
Biting apple at 2am.
Feel so geeky nerdy weirdo
Lol let's try if half-conscious study process works



Can't stand my own madness
Can't rant on facebook
So this is where I randomly write scribble jitter scramble ramble lol
Wish me good sleep
Don't care if it is good night or good morning
I miss Grandpa Chou

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Stars for life.

Posted by Qi... on 22:56

How many stars you earned today?
So I heard of this cure for procrastination
Nothing new, nothing complicated
Just the constant mantra Self-Control

But this direct sales guy proposed a very simple direct way
Make it an economic token/game or whatever you wanna name it
Count every achievement.
Give yourself a star/any reward
Make a reward chart.
Chart your progress.
Make it tangible
Yea very kindergarten but.....
That sense of achievement will fuel your progress
Or so they say



I always have this awe for people with determination
They set goals.
For whatever reason you think reasonable or not
They reject all forms of temptations
They persist. Day by day. For months. For years.
Then you see the changes.
You clapped for them.
You basically witness the whole process.
You encouraged them while lazing around instead of joining the force
So yea, people celebrate their success so you also celebrate together loh
But.....where is your plan?

Was actually trying to get myself to do some little things consistently everyday
Erm, as usual I have tonnes of excuses to spare
and lying on my bed is more comfortable and anything else so uhum,
The plan is still a plan.

Maybe it is time for me to have some self-control too
Besties had been giving me the same advice like, 10 years ago?
Am not gonna wait until 30 or 40 years old
Hopefully lol.

Thanks for the motivation random guy.
And you. you. you.
Three girls to be precise.
Thanks and we will see.




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五天

Posted by Qi... on 20:22

在家懶了五天
完全充電完畢
像小孩似的鬧著爸爸買了整桶冰淇淋
把沙發全都拿來當坐墊枕頭
把客廳弄得亂七八糟
一天睡三四輪
唯二的貢獻就是做了粽子和美麗的早餐
坐著就會有人問 要喝椰水嗎 蘿蔔汁 酵素
簡直就是皇宮啊~~

但是我很笨的 早早回來了
留了五天給自己閉關
太安逸的日子
過久了 我會很沒有安全感
不是怕世界需要我
是怕有一天世界不需要我
還是認命的 乖乖回來當讀書生

最近才發現
原來我對睡眠不足和壓力的resistance很低
處於壓力鍋下的我 真的是只會噴火的怪獸
不小心被燒傷 就拍謝啦
不過現在 過了地獄五月
現在我的主題曲完全是lalalala~~Life is wonderful
所以我又變身成為善良可愛人見人愛的我啦
現在大家有空可以找我哦
在考試高峰期來臨/魔鬼現身之前

再過兩個星期
就要跟3rd year說掰掰了
*忐忑中
Thesis和假期posting都還沒有定案啊~~
呼,希望明年順順利利~~真的很需要保庇




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匆忙人生

Posted by Qi... on 20:46

跟朋友聊著
暑假快到了
好多人 出國了
假期 要去 旅遊 交換 實習

怎麼本來的計劃 全都沒了
這個假期 我想留給自己
單純的在家混
看看書 在附近走走 跟朋友喝茶
寫寫字 種花種草 煮點什麼 都好

是喜歡 旅行那種陌生的空氣
一切感官被提升
又重新變回好奇小孩的感覺

但更想要 找回自己的步調
飄散了好久 是時候 重整自己了
就算是在踏入恐怖的上班族世界之前
最後當一輪 高中生吧
懷念那些在家悠閒的下午
唸著不需要考試的書的感覺


不想再漫無目的的走
沒有research的旅行 有驚喜
但是做了research再加點小random的surprise
才是自己理想的旅行


最近在想著
怎麼我們都過得那麼忙
大家都忙的   好像悠閒是種罪
忙到最後 真的很茫

如果能放慢腳步
是不是會更好
節奏太快
把自己弄得暈頭轉向
都搞不清楚方向

停下腳步 回頭看的時候
不知道自己走過那裡 更不記得什麼風景
看著鏡中的自己
越來越重的眼袋 越來越不可愛的臉
努力回想
只依稀記得 一些人事物 好多的小小遺憾
有人問你 在忙什麼
真的答不出 越扯越心虛
我也好想問自己 你到底在忙什麼鬼

你沒有變成你想成為的自己
甚至你忘了 你想要的 是什麼
就讓時間輪盤 轉轉轉
轉到 你忘記一切
跟著時光 流過一年又一年
直到老去

匆忙人生
是為了什麼
忙到頭 又得到什麼 剩下什麼
這個問題
希望 十年 二十年後問自己
答案 可以讓自己滿意

最近聽到這首歌
沒有很好聽 不是很喜歡 MV更扯不上什麼關係
但是歌詞就准准的插到我的心了


我們都把生命過的很匆忙
消費時間過的很慌張
街上每個人都這樣
就像一個傻瓜
太多牽掛 太多說不完的徬徨
我們不應該讓心很忙
偶爾要讓腳步停一下
多少人錯過你身旁
再多後悔能怎樣
別再害怕 我們別再讓自己更忙


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Dinner X3

Posted by Qi... on 13:55
So it was our very own first dinner
Couldn’t really say I enjoy the dinner
Just like what I told my dad, I paid to come and work and cant even get a bite of the cakes!

30th May mark the end of a lot of things
That week, was just disastrous
Doing video till 6am and miss the 9am class, totally
Non-stop assignments and edit edit edit with constantly MIA groupmate
So I was literally an active volcano
On that very day, I was working on the gimic and video till 6pm,
Just 1 hour before the event.
Lucky I have the sweet juniors to be my make-up artist and hairdresser

A lot of times you see people forgot everything because of the final joy moment
But I choose to stick with the reality that stay with me from the very beginning
No this thing is not perfect
No it is not worth it
No it could be better
But you have no stance to point your fingers to others because you too, fail your responsibility

But I still think this is a lovely night
Because I got to see a lot of faces I miss, especially Fatimah!!!
The only good side of having school dinner is for me to meet all these warm people <3
And for me to learn some video making technique? :p
It was quite fun actually, better if I could have more time ;)

So, next year, it would be a dinner for us
How would it be? =p









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