Is it final?

So that's the final decision, I guess

I didn't even struggle or try to fight back

Cause the rational part of my brain agrees with everything she says

and I know, it's for my own good.

Sometimes I hate myself being this nodding little girl

for not fighting for myself hard enough

But, what to say,

I appreciate the effort and every bit they tried to help me

and I know it is of good will.

I mean, having so many discussions and my name being mentioned in so many meetings

make me feel so flattered. LOL

NOT TO MENTION EVERYONE KNOW HOW BAD MY CLINIC WAS

To be exact, they know it is bad, no one knows how bad. >.<

This is bad.

But I know I'm going to gain something from this

At least I'm not missing out all the treasures we have here

and yes, keep the <3 for something far better, 

ahead

For me to remain positive

I need something to cheer myself up.

Vietnam maybe? HAHA

Thought I could run away from here

That's something I secretly relieved

but guess my work my study my burden my legacy

still mine.

Not the time to get rid of it, yet

Maybe it's just not the time

Everything happens for a reason

and I hope this is a good reason.