小小的 仰着的脸

All those young naive faces in the observation room reminded me of a lot of things
"Did you all learn this in lecture?"
Diplomatic answer is Some,
But the very truth is NO, LECTURES NEVER PREPARE YOU ENOUGH FOR ANY OF THIS

Guess we were just like them
Watching without knowing what we were watching
That one hour passed.
Time to go back.
Maybe it provokes your thought.
Make you think about future but it will quickly be left behind your mind
Cause you have so many worries now

But I still remembered the first session I observed
Everything. How I am amazed by the controllable CCTV
(You can zoom-in zoom-out and control the direction like video game stick!)
What the senior did and the material used(finger puppet and farm animal :D)
Even the child's response
I was inspired and amazed in every way of it
Maybe today I inspire the junior in another opposite way lol

Yea negative example is still example

"cheerful and patient exterior"---or expressionless and cool in my SV's word

Not something I want anyone else to witness but apparently that is out of my control

I know exactly which room and who's in XP

Looking at some of the sleepy face
I can totally understand why people feel sleepy in an observation room
Not because I did slept inside
But this is about what it takes
A year passed before I know what to see in a session
If you don't have or not aware of the skill,
You will not be able to detect it in a session
You need an eye for it
I am a very very very slow learner and slower in applying the skills in my session
That explains a lot
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This is another day,
When another junior told me how he watched video of speech therapy throughout the holiday
and have so much fun from it
I doubt my efforts and passions
I never have the patience to finish my own video(too embarassing! >.<)
not to mention looking through other's video
Reminded me of this sentence
一个人的时间花在哪里，是看得出来的

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那些小小的 仰着的脸
看得我 有些炫目
正如我们抹不掉学过的痕迹
那种期盼的光芒也不会回来
仗着单纯 缠着学长姐问白痴问题的美好时光
已是往事
现在角色调转 是我们回答问题的时候了

但再多的叮咛劝告分享 也没有用
只能说
若是不曾走过 怎么懂

自己一步一脚印走出来的

才是最踏实合脚的路

祝福你们 有个深刻的旅程

不求轻松愉快 只求收获满满

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#Listening to my client's speech sample makes me wanna bang wall. HOW TO TRANSCRIBE? Why on earth did I ask him to do that? Super regretting it lol