一年了……

SPM result is out AGAIN

Ya, this is an annual event

but somehow I just can't ignore it

even though it is not related with me anymore....

All those memories just keep flashing back

Can't help to think about it

I think that maybe u too have the same feeling

The day when you get your result

Really signify something.....

Han, you could get your treat next time maybe....^^

Last year, from that day on

my life switched to a totally different track

a 361 degree rotation from my leisure country lane

There is a quote I really like:

Life is like a roller coaster

You NEVER know when 

it's going to take a turn

So, just ENJOY it!

Indeed, I had the most exhilarating ride

in that few months

Being lifted above the ground

smashed to the earth

and

rise above.....
because I earned my treasure here....
True friends, which can't be found anywhere else....

But

Those feelings....

emotion that surges from bottom of my heart
since the moment I get my result,
joyous, anticipating,

like all good things is going to happen

followed by 

angry, disappointed, dejected

helpless, lost in the mist

I thought

All these should be old enough 

to sink under the ocean of memory

instead, 

they FLOAT on it....

And keep surrounding one fixed point

A year.....

I wasted ONE YEAR(actually more)

deciding about which path should I take(still in progress)

when I already have clear picture of it since Form 3 I think....

It's just that my version of answer is not schematic enough

So I had to try to compromise
Think, rethink and reconsider so many option,
I even find out a list of biomedical career

and tick off one by one

Honestly, I could just throw the list into the bin

That's easier.....

Still, I'm lingering here, pathetically....

Good news is, my resistance toward science is decreasing with time

Maybe I could really find something for me here....

Watching 25th Mac moving on the clock

I knew

I left something behind

But there is more

that I would carry on with me

My dream

will still be a part of me

Though I choose a 10 times harder way now

(You can say I'm crazy)

I want to do it, anyway...

Just want to say,

SORRY for didn't believe in myself....