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Habit

Posted by Qi... on 14:40

Recently I am quite satisfied with my progress
Fourth year for me, is actually much more managable than third year
Probably because I am more used to clinic
Or simoly because we have less class
And most importantly, I am free of club duty and obligation(mostly XD)

So finally being able to be a student
At my fourth year(?!!!)
Better late than never HAHA
So finally I have the chance of experiencing the feeling of being ahead of deadline
Doing everything on my pace at a relaxed mood
Feels so good
MAke me wonder why on earth did I torture myself all these years?

I need to #makeitconcrete #reinforcement #persistent to make this a habit

Create a healthy lifestyle! 


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Disastrous

Posted by Qi... on 14:30


I don't know which one is worse.
Something disastrous happened?
Something disastrous happened but no one bothered to show concern?
Something disastrous happened but all I concerned about is the concern of everyone else.

Grow up, girl
Time to learn more emotion management and do it the adult way, even if it means being a hypocrite you hate all along.


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Posted by Qi... on 16:05
好久没有静静坐着敲键盘了
通常原因有两个,
一个是我忙得太没日没夜
二是我目前过得愉快惬意
没有需要诉苦的地方

好在 这次是好事
最近的日子
淡淡的 没有波澜
偶尔 有小小的雀跃
偶尔 有阵阵的低潮
但是 倒头一睡 就这样 过去了

步入第四年
其实感觉很踏实很轻松
老老实实地做好实习
认认真真的听课
准时交功课
终于 可以专心的做学生
真的 很自在

他说 我很幸运
是啊 我的日子总是过得很轻松
Client都会准时现身
Supervisor比我还认真催我工作
一切似乎都在时间轨上
我不想争是幸运还是祖先庇荫还是我少少的努力
想认真的 把眼前的都做好

这四年都没怎么认真在当好学生
这一次 想踏实的
像小学生版 战战兢兢的 按时间表做好功课
听着老师说的话 乖乖点头照做
毕竟当学生的日子 不多了

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鬼撞墙

Posted by Qi... on 15:46

有一种情形叫鬼撞墙,不管你怎么左拐右绕,最后还是一头撞上那面墙。 我的墙是那个黝黑瘦小的男孩,和他牵着妈妈的手在烈日下离开的背影。

我可以原谅自己身为学生的不完美,身为学生的身不由己,谅解老师的考量,但我不能接受我们就这样放他回去那个没有希望的世界。

半年后的今天,我再狠狠的一头撞上去了。但这一次,是我自己走上去的,撞得清清楚楚明明白白,我甘愿。

一开始是有点想讨回公道,不只是觉得她不断的质问委屈了我,而是她折杀了我对这职业小小的期盼。 但今天,就算被问得结舌,我泛泪的眼闪烁的是明亮的光,自己错在哪里,终于知道了。

更开心的是,我亲爱的老师们,用比我还激动的心情想守护着孩子,看着激动的不断质问为什么放他走的老师,质问我为什么什么都不做不断给我建议的老师,我是感动的,因为有她们,我相信这个行业值得守护,我相信我们可以做更多来帮助这些孩子,我想让自己变更好。

因为下一次,我不想浪费你的时间,不想带你走歪路,更不想对你说一句,我们这里能帮你的有限,然后放你走。

如果有下次,就算用尽力气只能把你拔起一寸,力气不足我认了,但是我要确保自己用尽了那一寸的力。

下次没有很遥远,下次就是现在。记得今天的两席话。


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Move

Posted by Qi... on 15:46
If you need someone to push you,
then you are not moving anywhere
cause that someone is not gonna be there for you forever
No one will, not even your parents
Someday, they will move on, or even worse leave behind by you
So starting from today,
learn to be your own pillar of support
So that one day, in times of need, you can help someone from falling

If you don't push yourself, who will?


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