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New lesson

Posted by Qi... on 01:18
I hate it the most when you know something is wrong but no one to blame.
Only yourself.
Then you wondered what if you took the action
But what if never turn into reality if it is only if
You tried, but not hard enough
Not with the right way
Not at the right time

Now the only thing you can do is just pray that something good will turn out
I do trust them
They showed me what they are capable of
I have no doubt of it
But I don't feel fine because
I didn't do my part
As what they say
We didn't make contribution so we have no stand to comment
If you don't have better suggestion, just let it be
It makes me feel bad because this is just so freaking true
and indeed you have something in your mind

PRESENTABLE and SHOW APPRECIATION
Hope we can do that.
^^

I'm tired of interfering everything.
And the moment I loosen my hand
I get more troubled.
They said this is your fault.
When you take care of everything since the beginning,
it is your responsible till the end.
People don't know when you want to hand over to them
and what to do with that
OK, I get it now.
Must keep holding on.



You are only responsible to yourself
Others, whether they are doing their job or not,
That is their business
You must pick up everything and make sure it is fine
since you want the good outcome in the end
Sometimes extra effort is inevitable
You choose what you want
and so you must sow what you want to reap


No regrets.
It take tolls.
Get ready =)




There is always a reason to smile =)
Like a cute Google doodle
Comforting words from nice friends


Thanks a bunch for still willing to withstand my bad attitude
Will get a better way of emotion management soon
Hopefully


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Get back on track

Posted by Qi... on 01:05


Countdown 30days.

Been spinning around for weeks.
Chased by assignment, presentation and job that 
Sorry for being irresponsible
and thanks to everyone that helped me throughout these few days
especially classmates that had to take extra burden for our group assignment

Finally have time to patches of life
Sleep until I wake up naturally
and started to hang on fb again ><
Thanks to friend that remind me while I mingle around with activities, 
I still have to take care of my academic performances @@

Step by step,
trying to pick back what I had missed
and regain my tempo in life

Last 30 days before I end my first year.
Definitely I want to end it with =) 
No regrets.





for everything. <3




Heard this today. Nearly cried.
Thanks for filling my day with inspiration and love and wonderful advice....



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母亲节

Posted by Qi... on 00:12

母亲节的歌


五月天 


洗衣機

作詞:阿信
作曲:怪獸
編曲演奏:五月天+可樂 Cola Kai
鋼琴+鐵琴:怪獸+可樂 Cola Kai
和聲演唱:士杰+可樂 Cola Kai

洗衣機 穿著一身 褪色塑料壓克力
獨坐在陽台上 受 日曬風吹雨淋
電視機 孩子們目光都以他為中心
黑色簡約外型 多適合客廳

就算是吹風機 也有流線外型
緊握在手心 像跳舞親密
光榮的電唱機 晉升為古董級
典雅的中音 比誰都 更受歡迎

木訥的洗衣機 從沒有主題曲
只有風霜灰塵 讓人不想接近

從來沒有 一句的怨言 你丟多少它都洗
脫水總是 全心又全力 直到顫抖了身體
多少年了 旋轉又旋轉 時間一眨眼過去
上了年紀 卻依然盡力 孤獨勇敢洗衣機


咖啡機 歐洲進口 帶著書卷貴族氣
孩子都長大了 愛 圍著它喝那堤
洗衣機 一直以來 度量很大沒心機
它的唯一關心 是何時放晴

就算是已退役 的那台光碟機
也帶我經歷 冒險和愛情
冰箱的肚子裡 啤酒和冰淇淋
撫慰了多少 失眠和 失戀的心

木訥的洗衣機 從學不會討喜
洗過多少四季 然後再一世紀

所有電器 都住在屋簷下 不必風吹雨淋
卻只有它 孤獨的守在 陽台角落裡運行
多少年了 旋轉又旋轉 時間一眨眼過去
上了年紀 卻依然盡力 孤獨勇敢洗衣機

突然有天 好想要幫忙 衣服放進洗衣機
才發現了 它早就壞了 只是捨不得換新
奇怪是誰 一直清洗著 我闖的禍和污泥
好久以來 原來我衣服 全部都是媽媽洗

從來沒有 一句的怨言 你丟多少她都洗
她卻總是 全心又全力 直到顫抖了身體
多少年了 旋轉又旋轉 時間一眨眼過去
才發現了 媽媽一直是 我無聲洗衣機
才發現了 她的皺紋是 無法償還的借據
才發現了 她的背影是 無法釋懷的風景



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也許 我從來不是一個好孩子,

也許 我管不住自己的叛逆,

也許 我從來沒有讓你滿意,

也许 我很自私的选择不回家庆祝

也许 我从来没有买过让你满意的母亲节礼物

也许我是个让人不放心倔强别扭的Y头

但您的爱从来不打折扣

谢谢您

*抱抱*







想说 家里的洗衣机 是时候换了!



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不好意思

Posted by Qi... on 23:55



"你以为你还没长大,其实别人早已不再把你当成孩子


别人永远感受不到自己的痛苦,不要去倾诉,做好自己就好。
不管跟谁,朋友或陌生人,你必须学会,即使伤心,也要微笑。
每个人都很自私,不要奢望别人无缘无故对你好 "




不好意思,我还在学会微笑
很讨厌
莫名沉溺在愁思的自己
很清楚 不是谁的错
(更惨,想找个人骂都没有)
只是 情绪从来不是个听话的同学

请不要问我为什么

因为我也不清楚
就算知道 理由也太幼稚

不方便分享

真的很想

狠狠的发飙

但知道
很多事不是应该的
要顾虑很多人的感受

自己根本就莫名其妙
讨厌理智和荷尔蒙的共同存在

还在学着做个克制的人


要做的事太多了
你怎么还有空 emo?!!!





是的,我无聊到要求助fb apps


... that when you need some energy and inspiration, step outside.
Touch the Earth with your feet, lift your face to the sun, breathe the air, listen to the birds and the wind through the trees. Glory in the creation that surrounds you.

是时候站出来,把那些关我X事的事丢一边,呼……吸……



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Stroke in a new eye

Posted by Qi... on 00:32

Very有缘with stroke these few days.

Get stroke as the topic for both assignment
Visited a stroke center today.

Before this, I wanted to show off a bit.
So proud of myself as I managed to find the way to NASAM without sesat although I just Google Maps the location once the night before. =D
Seems like my luck with taxi drivers improve as well. I get discounts, haha.


Found this when I was doing background research before the interview.
So touched.
They just want to let you know,

There are life after stroke.

But of course, after proper rehabilitation.
People may think stroke patient are useless old people and it is okay to leave them with paralyzed body and wheelchair.
But if you came here and take a look at how much effort they spend to regain their independence
you will definitely change your mind. 

Everyday they came for therapy
Repeating movement that were once simple for them with great difficulty
Spending minutes to recall how to spell tomatoes
Staring at those picture cards till their eyes burn a hole on it but still failed to recall the word
Writing school kid level word like ball, egg like little kid
You can see from the paper, how hard it took them to write a four alphabet word
They had to stop and think, erase over and over again because they forgot
Because they couldn't hold the pen firmly
Because their hand don't move the way they want
Even though it took them like a century to retrieve the word
Frustrated yes, sometimes they laughed at themselves
They never stop trying 

Once they were engineer, successful businessman, dedicated housewife
They welcome you with warm smiles
They were so eager to communicate
They want to tell you their stories,
They don't reject questions
But they were stopped by a barrier that was erected inside their brain
They tried to jump through the barricade
Search for words on the scattered floor
Reconnect the wire for motor control
The most saddening part is they are aware of their condition
They know
They were glad to see improvement
but on the other hand they also aware that this is only 10% of what they could really do

I actually feel like crying in the first session we observed
Not only when you see how hard the patient tried
But how their partner support them wholeheartedly
So sweet <3
How they keep their notes and diaries
Copying the words over and over again like we copy vocabulary in primary school
Smiling like a shy kid when they were praised for their art work
When they told you about all the efforts they did
Really feel like want to salute them


Stroke is such a mischievous devil 
You never know what it might do to someone.
It can took away your speech, your freedom, your ability to move and on top of it
YOUR LIFE
You never know when it strike
A man we interviewed get his stroke in the middle of a heart scan in a hospital
How was that even possible?
But when it done its trick to you
You have to deal with it

Real life is always different from the textbook.
Aphasia, Apraxia, Dysarthria
Effortful speech, word finding difficulties, agrammatism, memory retrieval difficulties
It does not bring any meaning when you just want to memorize the definition to answer exam paper
and every people exhibit different characteristic even they have the same problem
It is never the same and that's why observation is so important

In a way, these patients are lucky
Although we might think the center is small,
The condition of the therapy room was not very conducive
The resources are limited
At least they get proper treatment
At least they were given the chance to fight to regain their independence
At least they were not left to rot on wheelchair or sick bed with a maid
They have a center with well-organised administration and dedicated volunteers
They could even go outing and play bowling as outing activities
The center is going to start another hard times without speech therapist once again
Really impressed by the spirit of the volunteer
They can come twice every week for years
and ensure the continuation of the speech therapy even without a speech language therapist
and they do this for free
seriously I thought these type of people extincted in this world
But miraculously, these gems still exist and shining more glaringly after years of polishing 
They are humble. They said they were just helping around and not properly trained
But what they did were way more than this
Sometimes you don't need to gain the title to do the work
And you don't do the work to gain a title

Anyway, we only managed to see the mild patient,
how about the severe case where they have no respond at all?
I asked senior, what should you do when they couldn't respond to you
Lower your expectation, they answer
Sometimes you just have to accept the fact that status quo doesn't allow you
Somehow I feel that we are lucky to miss the afternoon session
I dislike the helpless feeling
When you have to surrender to the devil
and satisfied if they can point and made gestures
You'll say, at least they can communicate
But still, this is not enough
Still learning to accept the fact



Thanks to all these assignments which give me a chance to really get in touch with stroke patient
Starting to view strokie from a whole new perspective
Seriously I feel like want to be a volunteer there!
Friends, they are having a fund-raising carnival at 26th Jun
Do go and support if you can! ^^




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二十的感谢词

Posted by Qi... on 01:42

我真的很需要一个人来骂醒我

谢谢你

让我真的静下来
想自己这四年要怎么过
“如果你不知道自己在做什么,真的很失败!”
一早决定不做自己不喜欢的事
但还是陷入了一团泥泞
有时候我会觉得
知道自己要什么办不到
比混混沌沌过日子更难熬
我想我知道该怎么做
从整理我一团乱的生活开始吧!

正式步入二十
想要告诉每个朋友
谢谢你们

谢谢你们
让我吃到二十岁还可以这么noob
谢谢你们的忍让体贴包容
让我依然那么
粗鲁
邋遢
幼稚
暴躁
孩子气
单纯
依赖性强
好像不是件好事 XD
但是我知道 正是有你们的呵护
我才能任性了这么多年

感谢老天一直让我遇到好人
一直像姐姐般照顾我的人
在我被欺负时为我出头的人
在我过火时骂醒我的人
每天骂我笨,以笑我为乐却比任何人都关心我的人
让那些勾心斗角争名夺利对我而言
都是别人的故事

谢谢你们 爱我的每个人
听到你们声音就觉得很温暖的人
可以舒服自在的说话的人
可以很自然地嗲的人
可以用oi跟你们打招呼的人
谢谢你们
让我有可以微笑的理由

就算没有
随你滚的床
任你靠的肩膀
把你的脸当馒头压的魔掌
依然感觉到
身边人的关心和温暖
世界总是有千奇百怪的方法
有些人凭着说废话
就能让你一起陷入低能的傻笑境界
只是有些习惯
不是说改就改的
所以如果你看到我
用我的螺丝转你的肩膀
拉着你的书包
抱着枕头走进你房间
请不要惊讶
这也是我的表达方式
我已经尽量在克制了

很多时候
很不想长大
很多事情
不是不明白
只是想忽略那规则
假装我是不懂事闯进来的小孩
这样 比较容易过关

但二十了
应该没有这种借口了
长大
虽然会累
但我要类的甘愿愉快
你知道的
你没有投诉的权力
因为永远有人比你更累
但更卖命做得更好

你说我跟一年前没变
因为跟你说话的人是我
赤裸裸未经过滤的我
我怀疑如果你现在认识我
我们还会是一gang的朋友吗?
会吧!
我们的频率还是那么对
跟你聊过就觉得好像过了心灵大扫除
虽然问题还在
但我觉得
我可以应付了
至少
心 少了一层浓浓的雾


或许,要求少一点
就会过得容易点
只是过不了自己那关



是的
正是那些
注意到最细微细节的人
让你感觉最多温暖




低调的二十岁
最贴切的形容

牛盈,爱死你了
用三个字也无法形容
这碗面线对我的意义
我说
暖了整个心扉
扫走阴霾
一点都不夸张
感动 真的可以很简单


想说
我不要礼物
只想听你们的声音
一起聊天
分享一杯饮料
再给彼此一个拥抱
就够了




谢谢每个认识的不认识的
人图片文字电影音乐
让我看到这世界的美
坚信
你永远都能找到微笑的理由 =)






是的,我还在拖延长大的期限


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谷底

Posted by Qi... on 00:21
很久没有对家人诉苦了
当一字一句让情绪呼吸时
其实 不哭 我忍得很辛苦

逼自己跟着时间表过日子的生活
当出席名单中那个勾勾
太不适合我了

十九岁的最后一天
让情绪跌倒谷底
然后
是时候 回弹了



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CM @ Role Play 1

Posted by Qi... on 13:12
Had a role-play yesterday.
A really interesting case. 55 years-old Mr.Lingam with Broca aphasia.
Pity Ah Boon had to act as Indian with stroke patient like-speech
I tried to imitate,
but it is just so hard to talk when you try to harden your tongue,
even though I managed to
yet the speech were still too clear and fast for a stroke patient.
It is hard, when you speak so naturally that you don't even realize how those words are form in your brain and mouth, how are you going to twist them around?

This makes me think more about these patients.
They used to talk normally like you and me
But after the stroke, they must use extra effort, use all their strength, just to pronounce a simple word
Imagine the frustration
Not one day with sexy voice due to flu
Not losing your voice at the eve of singing competition
But losing something as natural to you as breathing



Just like this Sarah.
She was 19 when she had this stroke.
Same as me.
Yet every word for her is like a battle.
If couldn't talk for a day or two is like killing you, how about them?


ROLE-PLAY DAY

When we first step in the room and saw a video conference was put on
We was like............WHATTTTTTT?
I don't know there would be evaluator from outside
There are 3 people on the screen!!!!!!!!!
Are we gonna have a panel to evaluate us?
Luckily the other two guys were technicians.
Still, the atmosphere was so tensed

I can feel my heartbeat. Pounding

I wonder, if I am that nervous until my voice shake during practice and noticeably nervous in the presentation, how would it be when we are in clinic?
When there would always be a supervisor and maybe your junior observe on the next door?
Gonna get over this soon.

Glad that we get quite positive comment from our lecturer though there are still much to improve <3

Just love the Lingam family. <3 You guys are so cute.
With the red spot on your head and sporadic Tamil.
Too bad we didn't took photo yesterday =p



Role-play 2 in two weeks.
Time to squeeze our brain again @@
I believe we could do better ^^


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Posted by Qi... on 11:28

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10 Things Your Commencement Speaker Won't Tell You

Posted by Qi... on 00:53

Class of 2012,
I became sick of commencement speeches at about your age. My first job out of college was writing speeches for the governor of Maine. Every spring, I would offer extraordinary tidbits of wisdom to 22-year-olds—which was quite a feat given that I was 23 at the time. In the decades since, I've spent most of my career teaching economics and public policy. In particular, I've studied happiness and well-being, about which we now know a great deal. And I've found that the saccharine and over-optimistic words of the typical commencement address hold few of the lessons young people really need to hear about what lies ahead. Here, then, is what I wish someone had told the Class of 1988:
1. Your time in fraternity basements was well spent.
The same goes for the time you spent playing intramural sports, working on the school newspaper or just hanging with friends. Research tells us that one of the most important causal factors associated with happiness and well-being is your meaningful connections with other human beings. Look around today. Certainly one benchmark of your postgraduation success should be how many of these people are still your close friends in 10 or 20 years.
Charles Wheelan checks in on Mean Street with some advice for the Class of 2012: pay very close attention, because there are key things you need to know that you won't learn by simply donning a cap and gown. Photo: AP.
2. Some of your worst days lie ahead.Graduation is a happy day. But my job is to tell you that if you are going to do anything worthwhile, you will face periods of grinding self-doubt and failure. Be prepared to work through them. I'll spare you my personal details, other than to say that one year after college graduation I had no job, less than $500 in assets, and I was living with an elderly retired couple. The only difference between when I graduated and today is that now no one can afford to retire.
3. Don't make the world worse. I know that I'm supposed to tell you to aspire to great things. But I'm going to lower the bar here: Just don't use your prodigious talents to mess things up. Too many smart people are doing that already. And if you really want to cause social mayhem, it helps to have an Ivy League degree. You are smart and motivated and creative. Everyone will tell you that you can change the world. They are right, but remember that "changing the world" also can include things like skirting financial regulations and selling unhealthy foods to increasingly obese children. I am not asking you to cure cancer. I am just asking you not to spread it.
4. Marry someone smarter than you are. When I was getting a Ph.D., my wife Leah had a steady income. When she wanted to start a software company, I had a job with health benefits. (To clarify, having a "spouse with benefits" is different from having a "friend with benefits.") You will do better in life if you have a second economic oar in the water. I also want to alert you to the fact that commencement is like shooting smart fish in a barrel. The Phi Beta Kappa members will have pink-and-blue ribbons on their gowns. The summa cum laude graduates have their names printed in the program. Seize the opportunity!

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Successful people are often asked to deliver a university or college's graduation speech, Here are some words of wisdom offered in commencement speeches over the last few years from President Obama, Conan O'Brien, Hillary Clinton, Stephen Colbert and Jimmy Carter.
5. Help stop the Little League arms race. Kids' sports are becoming ridiculously structured and competitive. What happened to playing baseball because it's fun? We are systematically creating races out of things that ought to be a journey. We know that success isn't about simply running faster than everyone else in some predetermined direction. Yet the message we are sending from birth is that if you don't make the traveling soccer team or get into the "right" school, then you will somehow finish life with fewer points than everyone else. That's not right. You'll never read the following obituary: "Bob Smith died yesterday at the age of 74. He finished life in 186th place."
6. Read obituaries. They are just like biographies, only shorter. They remind us that interesting, successful people rarely lead orderly, linear lives.
7. Your parents don't want what is best for you. They want what is good for you, which isn't always the same thing. There is a natural instinct to protect our children from risk and discomfort, and therefore to urge safe choices. Theodore Roosevelt—soldier, explorer, president—once remarked, "It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed." Great quote, but I am willing to bet that Teddy's mother wanted him to be a doctor or a lawyer.
8. Don't model your life after a circus animal. Performing animals do tricks because their trainers throw them peanuts or small fish for doing so. You should aspire to do better. You will be a friend, a parent, a coach, an employee—and so on. But only in your job will you be explicitly evaluated and rewarded for your performance. Don't let your life decisions be distorted by the fact that your boss is the only one tossing you peanuts. If you leave a work task undone in order to meet a friend for dinner, then you are "shirking" your work. But it's also true that if you cancel dinner to finish your work, then you are shirking your friendship. That's just not how we usually think of it.
9. It's all borrowed time. You shouldn't take anything for granted, not even tomorrow. I offer you the "hit by a bus" rule. Would I regret spending my life this way if I were to get hit by a bus next week or next year? And the important corollary: Does this path lead to a life I will be happy with and proud of in 10 or 20 years if I don't get hit by a bus.
10. Don't try to be great. Being great involves luck and other circumstances beyond your control. The less you think about being great, the more likely it is to happen. And if it doesn't, there is absolutely nothing wrong with being solid.
Good luck and congratulations.
— Adapted from "10½ Things No Commencement Speaker Has Ever Said," by Charles Wheelan. To be published May 7 by W.W. Norton & Co.

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