Lesson of the week.

Be prepared. 

Work harder

Things don't just work well on its own

Sometimes u need Plan from A-Z, backupsssss

You can waste your time

But please don't eat away people's LIFE.

That 1 hour mean a lot more for them.

Quote from my dear Ms.Y

Please don't go in if you are not serious and well-prepared for it.

I'm always a OPTIMIST. Who likes to procrastinate.
Double the risk

Respect. 

For yourself and also the people you deal with.

Please, try harder.

If you really care.

 1． 《無論你遇見誰，他都是對的人。》

這意味，沒有人是因為偶然進入我們的生命。
每個在我們周圍，和我們有互動的人，都代表一些事。
也許要教會我們什麼，也許要協助我們改善眼前的一個情況。

※ 2． 《無論發生什麼事，那都是唯一會發生的事。》

我們所經歷的事，不可能，絕不可能以其他的方式發生，即便是最不重要的細節也不會。
並不存在「要是我當時做法不一樣．．．那麼結果就會不一樣。」
無論發生什麼事，那都是唯一會發生的，而且一定要那樣發生，才能讓我們學到經驗，以便繼續前進。
生命中，我們經驗的每一種情境都是絕對完美的，即便它不符我們的理解與自尊。

※ 3．《不管事情開始於哪個時刻，都是對的時刻。》

每一件事都正好是在對的時刻開始的，不早也不晚。
當我們準備好，準備經歷生命中的新奇時刻，它就在哪裡，隨時準備開始。

※ 4．《已經結束的，就已經結束了。》

這是如此簡單。當生命中有些事情結束了，它會幫助我們進化。
這是為什麼，要完整享受已然發生的事，最好是放下並持續前進。

是啊！你坐在這裡，讀著這些文字，我相信這絕非巧合。如果這些文字觸動你的心弦，那是因為你和我的因緣成熟，你明白沒有任何一片雪花，會因為意外落在錯的地方。
《常不輕菩薩．因緣果報－靈性》．

Before you could stood up and 

You are changed and shaped by the education you received

Recently I heard another TED talk

About how great an empire Great Britain is

lol....NO! It's about Education

The reason we have our education system now is

Once upon a time, when The Great Britain has 

It need an effective system to control everything

Therefore, 

they need those low low officers like clerk

Who are identical

This is where the school came from

with same set of curriculum, exams to examine the quality 

You don't need to have critical thinking,

it's good for you just to have enough knowledge to handle the documents

Isn't it interesting to know,

these 12 years of schooling we have been through, 

was initially intended to train us into the bureaucratic officer that we hate the most? :P

Time for some changes.

And this Mr. Mitra tell us

the best teacher, in fact

is the child themselves

"Because you left us computer that only uses English

WE HAD TO TEACH OURSELVES ENGLISH"

Amazing

And he did experiment everywhere

coined as Hole in the wall

because he left computer with Internet access in a hole in the wall

and let the child explore

especially at rural rural rural India

where the child know nothing about english, biology and stuff

and the outcome was surprising

they teach themselves well!

Child figure out things. FAST

and they learn better when they know they have no one to rely on

just THEMSELVES

and when they take the initiative

they learn more passionately and simply with better outcome!

This is where the magic comes.

:D

Google this guy.

Sugata Mitra. School in the cloud

You'll find a lot more.

Be the change that you want in the world

Hehe, my favorite monkey is the winner in the game XD

Seriously felt Einstein is the smartest guy in these few centuries. 

And suspected as autism/Asperger :p

He always ring the bell. Even when the whole world are sleeping and took decades to decode his words.

听过驴子和狗的故事吗？

一位誠懇踏實的農夫是驢子和狗的主人，驢子每天日出而作、日落而息，工作非常賣力而且辛苦；卻常常覺得不討主人歡心，因為「做得好是應該，做不好叫你捲舖蓋」的臉色，讓驢子害怕又無奈，所以自怨自艾。 

狗的運氣比驢子好得太多，白天吃飯、睡覺，把精神養得極好；當夕陽西下主人拖著疲累的身心回到家，搖頭擺尾的狗兒就跟前跟後，陪在主人身旁逗樂。 

這時候，農舍外面的驢子早已因為白天工作得太累而無精打采， 呼嚕呼地嚕睡著了。 

長此以往，狗兒深得主人寵愛，驢子卻日漸被冷落，主人甚至不經意地自言自語說：「養了一隻懶驢，七早八早就睏倦打盹！」 

傷心的驢子滿腹委屈，迫不得已向狗兒請教取悅主人的辦法。當紅得勢的狗兒雖有狗仗人勢的驕傲，卻也不吝賜教，牠指導驢兒說：「這很簡單啊，你只要學我在白天時好好養精蓄銳，待主人回家休息後，諂媚一點，投懷送抱，主人就會對你另眼相看了！」 

驢子感激涕零地對狗的指示言聽計從，翌日白天呼呼大睡，等到月出東山時，羞澀地走向農舍廳前，終於鼓足勇氣學狗一般朝向主人的胸懷撲去，主人見狀大吃一驚，心裡緊張地想：「這頭懶驢，今晚 

八成是瘋了，白天不幹活也就罷了，竟敢趁機夜來襲擊我！」於是衝進房裡取出獵槍，扣下板機，子彈衝膛而出，可憐的傻驢子就這麼被一槍斃 命，嗚呼哀哉。 

还是别羡慕了

天性 是改不了的

谷底……到了吗？

最近我的不在乎ness掉到一种新低

活动 学业 自己

只想懒懒的 泡着

同学说 看清我

最后一分钟的嘴脸

能做 但懒惰

但只要能完成工作 就算了

我还想说 大家把我想得太好了

我的责任心 和 道德心 

已经掉在地底200000米了

最近的专长是推卸责任

还好

仅存一点愧疚感 和罪恶感

不然 

用踢的我都很难动

最想做的事 是扫开桌上的一切

抱着枕头 舒服的做我的无尾熊

等下一波潮汐

把我推上 可以顺利呼吸的岸边

太慢了

或许 我就习惯了 

无压力的海洋

成为一只悠游的鱼

我需要一把梯子

一步一步的爬回来

The reason why I write.

Partly is because I know my darlings are stalking me :p

But above all, 

it is about emptying your heart.

Especially when I'm busy, stress

when it is the most wrongest timing to write

I do that. Compulsively

Pouring everything into paper

sucks out the bad feeling.

Or at least I feel so

Especially when you write with the traditional way

(Gosh my writing is so ugly now, unrecognizable >.< )

When the ink flows out and speak with you

You feel the stone-weight at your heart lighten

Should find some time to write.

In fact simply scribble some Chinese words make me feel  good

Remind me of high school time,

when we write on papers, textbooks, table, whiteboard

Everywhere

Passing notes. Spreading rumors :p

Cant stop "talking" even when the teachers stare at you

Remember those paper with teardrops.

Those word shine with hope

Papers that you hide in drawers.

Little words that make you smile

So, just write and throw the emotion junk away.

Carry your thoughts and dreams with you

But not the emo face :)

Reflex

A program your brain write

to protect you against every possible harm

Even yourself

If our brain is so simple till we can understand it

Then we wont be able to understand it anyway

I always had strong reflex

A HARD case for every clinic

My gag reflex took me 3 sessions

Remin me of Dr.Annie's joke

It only take 1 PhD Doctor and 4 undergrad to take a look on my larynx ha 

So do my blink response

It just took 3 student clinician and one lecturer

to help me put on a contact lens

Sorry for causing everyone such trouble

My body just love itself a little more

Or trust myself less.

haha, you know I always cause harm to my dear body :p

开学至今，

第一次回家

朋友问，就快放假了

为什么不忍忍？

因为接到电话

九十多岁的老人开口了

声音很虚弱

其实知道 是老毛病了

每年的某个季节

会腹痛咳嗽没胃口胀气喘气全身乏力

我妈说的 欠医生钱

只能指定看那个医生

严重的时候住几天医院

过一两个星期 就会好了

这次 希望也是如此

很清楚

下一通电话 

他会说 不用回来了 省车费

但家里有个很老很老的人的时候

会有种挥之不去的恐惧

老人家睡得沉了 早上了还没起来

你会怕 这么一睡 会不会醒不来了

这次会不会 比较严重

出外两年他第一次主动打给我

还不回家

他会不会以为你都不关心他了

回家 感受一下家庭温暖也好

而且 老人家总爱口是心非

你问他 他说不用买了

但其实没吃早餐等你带东西回来

话说

老妈 在有限的两天内

很努力的 在餐桌上填满我爱的食物 耶！

然后在我写报告写得很投入的时候

探过来说 要听你分享学校的故事

太可爱了 XD

我很虚伪的忏悔 回来一趟好像劳烦大家

要买这买那 要老爸帮我跑腿 七早八早买车票

爸爸居然说

“为女儿服务，是应该的”

呵呵呵，这是我辈子听过最甜的一句话

要记录下来

让家人看看我 也让我看看他们 

瘦了 弱了 还是 又胖了

让他们有机会拉着我的手 说往事

让我可以靠着妈妈 聊有的没的

就这样 不productive也很开心 :)

回到宿舍

一个人窝在房间吃

明明吃的 是家里打包的便当

一样的饭菜

但少了拌饭的笑语 饭后成列的水果甜品

就变成冷硬难咽的饭

凌乱的房间 和 有了我就变得比较乱的家

反差太大

没错

会遗憾，自己错过了某些时光

但这些琐碎的温馨点滴

不想用任何东西交换

就算只有一丁点的可能 

也不要一辈子的遗憾

Hate the feeling of coming back over the weekend

and found works piling over you

especially when it is not academic related

Gosh!

How I wish this is true

Am being a bad ass recently

sometimes i had a strong feeling to let go

and just hide in my shell and be a hermit crab

kinda stuck in the middle now

YOU ARE GOING NO WHERE

Ok, I'm stressed up

for the unpredictability

and me losing sense of direction

So when i'm distressed,

I hang around, eat junk food

numb my senses with games and facebook and sleep

everything else except the thing I need to face,

and end up facing bigger trouble than I had in the first place

Avoidance is my way to get away

In the end, it's just kids!

And good thing is they don't cry in my session :D

Hope it stay this way

Treat me well kiddo!

Though I'm still doing you no good for now.

WELCOME TO HOLLAND

by
Emily Perl Kingsley.

I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with a disability - to try to help people who have not shared that unique experience to understand it, to imagine how it would feel. It's like this......

When you're going to have a baby, it's like planning a fabulous vacation trip - to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It's all very exciting.

After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, "Welcome to Holland."

"Holland?!?" you say. "What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I'm supposed to be in Italy. All my life I've dreamed of going to Italy."

But there's been a change in the flight plan. They've landed in Holland and there you must stay.

The important thing is that they haven't taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, 
famine and disease. It's just a different place.

So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.

It's just a different place. It's slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you've been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around.... and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills....and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts.

But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy... and they're all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say "Yes, that's where I was supposed to go. That's what I had planned."

And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away... because the loss of that dream is a very very significant loss.

But... if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn't get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things ... about Holland.





It's not only about having child with disability.
It's much more.
Things almost never go the way you want it to be
Many of us, like me, are at Holland.
I can survive, at any corner, and have fun occasionally,
Sometimes you get so comfortable than you wonder,
why on earth I didn't thought of Holland in the first place,
But still, Italy haunts.....
The story without an ending is the one that puzzle you the most
You still hold that guidebook dear to heart, flip through it,
and wonder, what if?
Let that question mark be a stroke of wonder in your life portrait
or step on another plane, it will bring you to Italy.......or somewhere else :)
But you can still have fun, or hop on another flying journey and you will get there
But that Italy is never gonna be the Italy in your dream

Have fun in clinic before the kidssss arrive :D
Sometimes I think we buy all these for our own liking

First time is precious because it only happen once.
You don't know what to expect, perhaps you don't even expect
So you face it with whatever you have within
Or overthink everything and get so nervous and fussy and make everyone else stree

Wanted to remember that unease feeling
Multiple scenario running in your head
You refresh your email every 5 second to get confirmed answer
The small delight when you see his name and decide to choose that little kido

Toys shopping everywhere(for my own pleasure too LOL)
Plan everything over your head. over and over again.

Spend several nights just for 45 min.

Still can't believe we get so busy just for one child!

The first moment you saw him (bad instinct)
First time he wave back to you
The little fireworks inside when he let you hold his hand
Joy when he spurts out words
and how he is getting better, in my imagination perhaps


The way I wanted to remember my first client.
But I'm not sure if he would remember me at ALL
He never look at me into eyes T.T

They are child of star

You only have one chance. To do it right or not.

Soon they will step in another door and left you behind

Just hope you leave something good in them :)

NOW! It's just NOW!

Read a book recently :p

I'm kinda into neuroscience all these while

So I borrowed this after paying rm20 fine to National Library

(holiday+too lazy to walk)

and I bring this back >.<

Seriously don't scare die.

Hope I remember to renew, I don't wanna create new record for fine again.

So it's about instinct

Thinking without even thinking :p

Yay, sounds amazing right?

That instantaneous moment you saw something

there are millions of ongoing neural processes passing through impulses all over your brain

and think before you are aware of the process of thinking

Therefore sometimes, 

the instinct that pop out, is the answer 

but

when you overload it with more information

when you try to get the answer behind it

you lost it

The book covered lots of interesting research

about behavior, psychology

and they tell you

sometimes in making decision or conclusion

you only need few to know few deciding factors

for example, if you want to know whether a marriage would last

you get the couple to talk about conflict they have recently

and they found that just by identifying the microexpression(Yeay, true story of LIE TO ME )

you can sense which couple will last longer

only FEW seconds is needed

and if there is presence of COMTEMPT

then, sure die.

but we never know which factor

You can't such a thorough research on everything

This book is like freakonomic :p

It touches on a lot of topic

like how TALL, DARK and HANDSOME man really get advantages

How NEW and CREATIVE things that are too cutting-edge get shoved by market research

because it is just too mind-blowing for people  to accept it is good in the first place

How when our adrenaline rush to a certain highpoint, we become irrational

How prejudice exist and twist your mind even when you think you are being fair

How our mind are shaped by these little things are we are not even aware of

I like how it makes you look into things with different perspective

Blink and see it in a different way

Trust your instinct

but not 100%

because even if the first thought are the process of sophisticated thinking process that bypass our conscious judgement

It's still ONLY inside your head

and the world is just too much for a tiny brain.

:) Cheers, and blink ;D

The author that looked like DJ from 80s for me :p

Word of the year.

Focus.

with some discipline.

You are responsible, not only to yourself.

哈佛有一个著名的理论：人的差别在于业余时间，而一个人的命运决定于晚上8点到10点之间。每晚抽出2个小时的时间用来阅读、进修、思考或参加有意的演讲、讨论，你会发现，你的人生正在发生改变，坚持数年之后，成功会向你招手。

I contradict myself, a lot

I keep saying I'm gonna quit debate, it's not my thing

But I spent another weekend on a tournament again, 

and I'm still in the club

Though I found more relief and pleasure in skipping the training *wink*

It's MOHEC @ UM.

My first tournament in 1st year.

First time representing UKM debater after being selected in a super competitive selection

Maybe I stayed because the faith they put in me

The opportunity they gave me

Or

Simply because I haven't get what I want in debate

Definitely not the same people now :p

Well, probably now I can present things fluently now

But yet to reach what I set out for

Not to mention the level of analysis and critical thinking skill

and how to look at things in a bigger picture

Erm, about the knowledge, hehe, 

IF AND ONLY IF I HAVE TIME to read about NEWS, POLITIC, ECONOMY, HISTORY, NATIONAL RELATION, MORAL PHILOSOPHY

then i'd be a moving Wikipedia, Qiqipedia haha

Probably because breaking is fun

Hearing people talk about things TOOOOO not MY WORLD is interesting :)

Did a lot of talking this time

That's why my voice quality fall steeply

Glad I have team mates that come from rehabilitation science also 

Always like to hear these stories

Inspiring one like how you can help

And saddening one on how little we can do

some people had magical ability to make deep conversation

They just ask simple question like this is how it should be

How are you doing? What do you feel? Did you really achieve what you want?

Goshhh, kinda feel like interviewed but answering these questions make me clear out things too

Ajak my dearest friend at UM to meet up.

If not what to do whole night?

One funny coincidence.

Bought a T-shirt for her. And when she showed up, she wore exactly the same T-shirt!!!!!

end up she had 2 same T-shirt

Talked for 2 hours.

Glad that we still can had such conversation after months

I know she is always very distant and one day I'll get tired of pulling the thread

But just glad we had all these time together

Debate is not my life, I'm probably not going to work too hard for it
Passion long gone. Butt still I wanna find a place in it.
To get to listen to or join intellectual discussion concern on our society and what's going on the Earth
For the speeches that blow your mind
For beautiful flowery languages that make you nod with them
I may still be recognized by not bad novice (I'M NOT NOVICE ANYMORE)
But yeah, if you want to do well, you must pay for it
I'm just too lazy uhhhh

I'm so gonna regret not joining MDO for reasons I don't even remember now!
Malaysia Debate Open!