A lot of times,

photos remind us of what we had lost

than what we owned.

My favorite quote on neuroscience.

Repeating this to myself,

It always make me feel better when I had to study the brainy thing.

Be grateful that my brain is so advanced that I can't understand how it works lol

Reading a book that completely overwrite the theory from my lecture note

and it actually persuaded me

But I know if I Google

there would be more and more argument

contradicting theories and too many words for me to read

Too lucky this is not gonna be in exam or ten walls also not enough for me to bang

But yeah, this is what makes everything so interesting

Because no one know the exact answer

So just let your imagination flies

Who knows, you might land on the right spot

Something is wrong with my inhibition mechanism,
Like, totally wrong
The best proof, why am I here typing this nonsense when I have a paper 830am tomorrow?
Gosh,
Study week tested my inhibition control till an extend
I doubt do I really have problem?
Apart from having ADD, executive function dysfunction, what else do I have?
I just need that little focus to squeeze everything in my mind
Just a little so the moment I came out my heart wont be filled by bitter regret

So yeah, even if it is non-existent I'm gonna force it out
By facing the wall for 15min lol
So I'm done with crapping
kthnxbye

感恩生命中每个美好的人们

有好康会想到你的同学

会帮你丢垃圾的同学

用面子书教你数学的同学

自己走到你房间让你问问题的同学

不需要太多

就这样 小小的美好

就够了

他说
“如果你熬夜的时间和成果不成正比，
那不如去睡吧！”

读书有时，睡觉有时
该睡的时候就睡吧！
晚安，大家

He is 13.

Yes, it's a HE.

He failed to persuade me that even till the end.

Yet he talked like a boss.

So he talked about the awesomeness of education he had

After he quit formal schooling.

Cool.

I bet a lot of people wanted to do that.

Not me though, I love all the companions and fun I had in school.

Saw lots of comment regarding this.

Yes,

Not everyone can have the luxury to have such education

Not everyone is that fortunate(?) to have parents that had such insights

Most of us, the ordinary folks,

won't have private tutors,

need a certificate to get us a job,

and on top of all, I doubt if I myself had the determination to keep myself with the schedule.

Home schooling is not as simple as sit in house

The planning of a customized and interesting curriculum is a dinosaur project.

But, for me, he is just trying to tell you,

education is not a singular and fixed noun

Education is not all about which school you attend.

It is more.

You can have more if you want.

Like what the forever genius Einstein told us.

Personally I felt my education

came more from all the zap pa lang things I read and did all these years.

The textbooks I studied for As and to please my teachers,

it won't stay.

As if our brain had a special mechanism,

you must willingly accept it, actively seek for it and love it

for it to be valued good enough to store in our limited brain store.

I love my weirdly-wired brain 

If you think there is a lacking in your education,

Do something.

Definitely you can.

Read something else. Something you wanted to learn.

Make an experiment. Learn by doing it.

Learn how to photoshop. make a video. or an apps.

With all the resources available on line,

this is the best time for us to learn.

My favorite quote from his speech.

YOLO, Get a life people :)

Finally thought of my new year resolution

No, it should be my lifelong resolution

"Not to lost any of my belonging again"

This drama of me has its own life
It refuse to go down the stage even though its time is over

I wonder if I post the series of unfortunate event in fml
Among "your life sucks" and "you deserved it"
which one will the viewers choose.

I think I know the answer.

Success, is to be surrounded by shining eyes
is to be able to spark that fire in others <3

So it had been 3 years and 7 months

7 is the deciding number.

7 years is when a marriage face its biggest challenge

and according to this theory, 

apparently it can decide the life of a friendship.

After more than 1000 days,

we still have half way to go. :)

If this was me three years back,

I would straightly tell you

"No need to wait till 7 years,

I can tell we will last for a long long time"

But as one ages,

you tend to think more.

So now I'll say,

time and distance had set a test for us

and we will see,

if we can still keep this on when we are working.

Perfect smile. :)

Love how we keep updating on each other's life

be the readily available dustbin as always

and creating new memories together.

That's how we keep each other close in heart.

I wonder when can our A2 family have a big reunion.

Miss everyone with their own pattern lol.

Looking at old photo is fun,

everyone look so cute here. <3

Till we meet again,

with love,

Qi

睡了很长的一觉

做了很多关于失去的梦

是不祥的预兆吗

梦里

亲爱的公公 被一堆债主围着

亲爱的表妹 哀叹身为蕾丝边的寂寞

亲爱的我 被卷进集中营回不了家 化身一条龙

话说 只有心境清和的人

才能有无梦不受干扰的睡眠

但如果能梦境记得一清二楚

那就是很有修行心无杂念的人

所以 我还是一个很多杂念烦恼的凡人

话说

今天是亲爱的老公公九十七大寿

老妈提醒过我居然忘了

而且 今年的我 没有回去庆祝

错过了我的红酒面线哈哈

是一种遗憾 提醒自己

能跟他一起过的生日

又少了一个

也来不及给他生日祝福

就推开我的电话让我跟老爸说去

这样好吗？

好在 我们还可以一起过新年

家里还有面线 

等我回去我们再一起吃吧

不求别的 只祝安康

只有一张照片只好一直recycle

回去要骗他跟我拍多几张哈哈

They say, taxi driver is the best reflection of a city
Somehow I had to agree with this
Reminded me of how I wanted to be journalist
Because I wanted to listen to stories of others
and write it down so all these oral histories won't lost with time
It's always stories of all these small characters that moved us deeply
Because we could always find parts of ourselves in their narration

I know KL's taxi driver don't have very good reputation
I once frowned and doubted when my friend told me
Taxi is very safe and convenient and she always took taxi alone
That's when I was little hesitant to took taxi alone during my matriculation time
You know, it is surrounded by forests and uninhabited area and who know what will happen?
But now, taxi is my choice and I actually prefer it over train
At some occassion, I will meet some nice taxi driver
and I found amusing to have a little chat with them
or just listen to their complain

Vividly remember an uncle who told me
He was once manager or something in hotelsss
He took Hotel Management during university time
worked in Golden Palaca hotel and some five star hotel that I couldn't recall
But he chose to quit and drive taxi now
because life as a manager is so stressful
You have no holiday on weekends or any holidays
You are out of the social circles gradually as you could never join any gathering
YOU NEED TO WORK
and in those off days, you are too tired and you would just sleep it off
Sometimes he even had to sleep at the office or ran back at the midnight
I could imagine, how such job eats one off

Although he did not earned as much as before
and I don't think his living condition is good,
judging from his taxi and shirt,
but he said he is happy with his life now.
Simple, with more freedom
He invoked a lot of thoughts in my brain
About life, work, societal perception and choices we made in life
Remind me of the story of the Mexican fisherman

Had a very very hard laugh together with the uncle
about all type of funny stuffs that could happened in a hotel
Although till now I can't imagine how his African employee
prepare yee shang by biting the materials LOLL
...............Wait, or he is psychotic?
But still, I genuinely meant it when I told him
I enjoy talking with him very much

Today, it was a 70 years old uncle
Who repeatedly told me he was an original dweller of KL
Jalan Temerloh is his spot
Where he grew up and
how he witnessed the change of this city
from forest with clear blue sky to this sky-crapper metropolitan
I was excited to dig more stories about our area and
the mysterious building beside our hostel,
but too bad it was just a five minutes journey.

But he shared one philosophy with me
Everything will collapse, everything has its age
No matter how strong how concrete all these buildings are
They will have their day and their last day
I look at all these familiar tall blocks and I wonder,
what will happen to this city after 100 years?
We are all temporary dweller of this world,
I don't think I have time to witness this
But I was thinking, maybe starting from scratch was easier
than rebuilding and maintaining the existing one
When all these new and shiny building become shaky
should we demolish and rebuild?
should we retain its original state and just try to repair and fix?
Hmmm, I'll just leave this to the future architects :p

Sometimes I wish i have whole afternoon for them
To talk with all these people who witness the most of this city
hearing from passengers from all walks of life
You know, sitting in a kopitiam
Take a sip of coffee and listening to all the stories
Because they have so much to tell
But well, it would never be the same when told in a different place
The story won't even begin if it wasn't in a taxi

That 5-10 minutes trip was their show time
Some choose to present a brilliant summary of their life
Some show the highlight of it
Some tell you about the recent incidents
Some tell you about recent news-complains about traffic, price, government
Maybe those stories are retold till their children can memorize it
Maybe these are lapuk stories in kopitiam
But since it is all fresh to me,
It's like an extra for me, at least the trip wasn't that boring
So yes, I do enjoy the small talk
provided the conversation partner is interesting :P

A Little Story

The businessman was at the pier of a small coastal Mexican village when a small boat with just one fisherman docked. Inside the small boat were several large yellowfin tuna. The businessman complimented the Mexican on the quality of his fish and asked how long it took to catch them. The Mexican replied only a little while.

The businessman then asked why he didn't stay out longer and catch more fish? The Mexican said he had enough to support his family's immediate needs. The businessman then asked, but what do you do with the rest of your time? The Mexican fisherman said, "I sleep late, fish a little, play with my children, take a siesta with my wife, Maria, stroll into the village each evening where I sip wine and play guitar with my amigos; I have a full and busy life, señor."

The businessman scoffed, "I am a Harvard MBA and I could help you. You should spend more time fishing and with the proceeds buy a bigger boat. With the proceeds from the bigger boat you could buy several boats; eventually you would have a fleet of fishing boats. Instead of selling your catch to a middleman, you would sell directly to the processor and eventually open your own cannery. You would control the product, processing and distribution. You would need to leave this small coastal fishing village and move to Mexico City, then LA and eventually New York City where you would run your expanding enterprise."

The Mexican fisherman asked, "But señor, how long will this all take?" To which the businessman replied, "15-20 years." "But what then, señor?" The businessman laughed and said, "That's the best part! When the time is right you would announce an IPO and sell your company stock to the public and become very rich. You would make millions." "Millions, señor? Then what?" The businessman said, "Then you would retire. Move to a small coastal fishing village where you would sleep late, fish a little, play with your kids, take a siesta with your wife, stroll to the village in the evenings where you could sip wine and play your guitar with your amigos."

The fisherman, still smiling, looked up and said, "Isn't that what I'm doing right now?"

-Author Unknown

赫然发现我连不爽的权力都没有
理智告诉我不行
深呼吸后我决定还是当个优雅文明的人
但是现在的我想爆粗
不好意思我不是大爱包容全世界的发光天使
请不要惹我 谢谢

When I finally get something called study mood
My brain feel stuffed within one hour lol
Didn't know my efficiency was that high
or my capacity is too low?

Didn't like reading while racing with time
Didn't like getting pieces of things here and there
But who ask me only study at such moment?

But I get some surprising new knowledge today :)
Just found out exercise will help to improve my neural connection as well
and.....overloading my brain is NOT GOOD!
Haha it had been a fruitful day
thought not 100% related to my study :P

Gonna back with my neuropsychology now
Think I'm falling in love more and more with this subject
when I really starting to read about it

But I had a weird feeling
reading all these neural networks and its function as if it is fiction
cause I can't visualize how it really works
and how it really works within my tiny head and many head of different sizes
But still it is an interesting fiction to read with all the MRI and stuff

Ok, now is time to use my HIGHER MENTAL FUNCTION to work for the exam >.<

How to piss of a Malaysian

The conclusion is,
no matter how bad a country is,
only the patriots can critic their own country
not you.
Never you, the foreigner.

Patriotism is cute

It goes in the same line

创造着自己的流浪轨迹

固定的 停滞在一些地方

回家 上巴士前 总会到转角的街闲晃

心情不好 总想喝一碗这样的汤

（因为有超大的豆腐和我最爱的猪肠）

经过那条街 总会照例喝一杯一块钱的煎蕊

喜欢这种一个人的时候

有目的的 无目的的 穿梭在各个角落

在新的地方 让感官被刺激

虽然我是超惯性的动物

第一次吃了什么 

第二三四五六次可能犹豫了很久

还是做一样的选择

但每一次 我都会走远一点

想创造属于自己的

这城市的地图

虽然对这座城市有数不尽的怨言

但是住久了 还是有感情

这座城市 其实很可爱

因为有很多爱着这座城市的人

所以更可爱

虽然讨厌人多杂塞车

但是这才叫生活的气息啊

总觉得明亮冰冷的购物商场 没有灵魂

在有点热有点挤的茶餐厅 

安娣用广东话问你＂食么耶＂

虽然安娣不一定很友善

但感觉就很真实

必去的书轩 必点的包容茶

三年了 我的地图还是很小很小

但是每一个小点 都是我的脚印

只要能在需要的时候 

找到一个让自己自在的点

我就知足了

又到了这个时候
每年的最后一天
照理该好好反省整理展望一下

虽然会怨叹 1314跨年居然得跟书一起过
但是 其实我本来就不是跨年狂欢的咖
时间显示00：00的瞬间
或许会挤到窗口看看双峰塔的烟花
更可能如如不动的坐到电脑前scroll fb

只是轻轻的提醒自己 2014了 不要写错日期
跟书本过 也是一件很幸福罗曼蒂克的事
可惜 课本笔记太无聊
今天 给自己小小的例外可以吗？

现在我算年份的方式 好像跟着学期多过年份
上学期的事情 感觉好遥远哦 是今年吗
做了什么 回想不起什么亮点
这一年 过得平淡 少少的起伏 狠狠的低潮
庆幸的是 都过了 险险的过关了
老实说 是很颓废的一年
因为 我很用力的甩开一切 开始过一个人悠闲的生活
小小的自在 偶尔的自责

学习到的 都是好抽象的东西
Not Quantifiable 也没有parameter可以衡量
大大的转折 把我猛力从原来的轨道甩开那刻
学会平衡 学会找回重心
学会重新定位
被贬到谷底的时候
学会省思 学会鼓励自己 还是学习着如何接受批评 改变自己
人际 做人 是永远学不完的功课

以前的我 可以列出很长很长的愿望年纪越大 愿望越小
现在的我 写给自己的期盼只有两个字
Self-control 自制
因为给自己的愿望 从来没有完成
改变 不是撕掉日历的那瞬间就突然变脸似的变了
是每天每天的坚持
如果我可以抓稳自己 走该走的路 做该做的事
那其实这个什么愿望 都不用了

看着去年的愿望清单
想起十七岁时 不知天高地厚的列了一张三十岁前要完成的事
贴在衣橱里面
想念那种敢敢去梦去做
觉得世界没什么不可能的心情
世界这么大 我就要去闯
听过青蛙爬山的故事吗？
只有那只耳聋的 听不到别人气馁的话的青蛙
才能爬到顶端
年轻 就是看不到危险 选择不听老人言
虽然说傻人有傻福
但是 不可能希望自己耳聋或是一样冲动没大脑啊
想要有的是 知道困难重重 知道很危险 知道没什么好处
还愿意昂首阔步走出自己那条路的自在豁达

选择不去倒数
2014 给自己的礼物
是9小时的睡眠
新的一年 想学习对自己好一点
学习对身边的人好一点
让自己的年轻 再持久一点
因为我觉得 我还没疯狂 就开始老去

朋友在面子书上分享的图片
真得太不快乐了
新的一年 只希望能survive
不期盼有噼里啪啦的笑声
只希望睡前 有一抹满足的微笑

好灰的新年哈哈

不是厌世
但突然对目前的生活 很厌倦
就是少了那么 一点点的动力
不是 是一点点的动力 都没有
旅行 呆在家比较好吧
读书 怎么越来越笨都读不懂
连睡觉 也需要催眠自己
只能机械式的划过与我无关的人事物片段

我 怎 么 了

想找一个灯塔
一个发光源
让我可以用力朝那方向 迈进
或许这样 我就不会一直停留在无脊椎动物的阶段

这么颓废的日子
一天就够了
在这样下去
我怕我会退化成植物

请给我 努力的理由