It's irreversible
It's a war without hope
You know no matter how hard you fought
It will win in the end
Against death
Against dementia
Against every changes time carved on us
Human seems so tiny
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| The movie that invoke all these thoughts |
I always felt dementia is the cruelest disease among all
Because it erase the meaning of your existence
Take away your identity bits by bits
Till the end you breathed but you don't know who you are
Why you breathed
Why are you here
Worst scenario one could imagine
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| It could make a novelist lost her words. It is that serious. |
The effect is not on you
Cause you don't know
When it strikes
You don't remember what you should remember
You don't even know you are having dementia
The one that suffered the most is the one that is always by your side
Losing you bits and bits everyday after spending most of their life with you
When you asked them "who are you"
That is the most devastating moment
No you can't took one's brain out and clear all the senile plaque
You can't move a lung once it stopped moving by itself
It's not on us
Yet we always tried
Futilely
Tried if we pushed hard enough
Will miracle happened
We would persuade ourselves to be satisfied
With every little achievement
Pathetically
Every time people talked about hospice care
I felt this overwhelming gloomy atmosphere
Yes it is a noble duty to help people doe with dignity
To let them lead a life with quality in their last moments
But it is just depressing to see people go on this journey toward the end
You are the one who helped them wrap up their luggage and send them to another life
The only last word is goodbye
As if if we could end the tragedy with a smile
Then everything will be fine
Deep down I know it is true
That is the very best us mortals can do
It is just too hard for me to swallow
All the times we were taught to fight
To try and try and if we really try hard enough
Something will happen
But I guess this idiot theory doesn't work for everything
When it comes to the end of life, no theory could be applied here
It's the fairest thing for all
One can die with millionssss of way
But in that instantaneous moment
You stopped breathing and you left without bringing anything
That's it. End of story.
If everyone need to embark on that journey
Then end it nicely probably is the best we could do
Don't ask why we try and do all these meaningless things
Because if you love them
You just simply can't let go of their hand
Even if they dont remember who you are
Even if they try to push you away and scream at you
They are still the gem in your heart
That's all that matters
Cheers to all those people that continue to fight in this hopeless war
They will know. They can feel by heart.
And you know.
