It will win

It's irreversible

It's a war without hope

You know no matter how hard you fought

It will win in the end

Against death 

Against dementia

Against every changes time carved on us

Human seems so tiny

The movie that invoke all these thoughts

I always felt dementia is the cruelest disease among all

Because it erase the meaning of your existence  

Take away your identity bits by bits

Till the end you breathed but you don't know who you are

Why you breathed 

Why are you here

Worst scenario one could imagine

It could make a novelist lost her words. It is that serious.

The effect is not on you

Cause you don't know

When it strikes
You don't remember what you should remember

You don't even know you are having dementia

The one that suffered the most is the one that is always by your side

Losing you bits and bits everyday after spending most of their life with you

When you asked them "who are you"

That is the most devastating moment 

No you can't took one's brain out and clear all the senile plaque

You can't move a lung once it stopped moving by itself 

It's not on us

Yet we always tried

Futilely

Tried if we pushed hard enough

Will miracle happened

We would persuade ourselves to be satisfied 

With every little achievement

Pathetically

Every time people talked about hospice care

I felt this overwhelming gloomy atmosphere

Yes it is a noble duty to help people doe with dignity

To let them lead a life with quality in their last moments

But it is just depressing to see people go on this journey toward the end

You are the one who helped them wrap up their luggage and send them to another life

The only last word is goodbye 

As if if we could end the tragedy with a smile

Then everything will be fine

Deep down I know it is true
That is the very best us mortals can do
It is just too hard for me to swallow

All the times we were taught to fight

To try and try and if we really try hard enough

Something will happen

But I guess this idiot theory doesn't work for everything

When it comes to the end of life, no theory could be applied here

It's the fairest thing for all

One can die with millionssss of way

But in that instantaneous moment

You stopped breathing and you left without bringing anything

That's it. End of story.

If everyone need to embark on that journey

Then end it nicely probably is the best we could do

Don't ask why we try and do all these meaningless things

Because if you love them

You just simply can't let go of their hand

Even if they dont remember who you are

Even if they try to push you away and scream at you

They are still the gem in your heart

That's all that matters 

Cheers to all those people that continue to fight in this hopeless war

They will know. They can feel by heart.

And you know.